Honesty is very empowering.
Everyone has secrets. Some people hide their innocent mistakes, and others hide the ways in which they have chosen to rebel and break laws, rules, or agreements.
People break the rules because it is initially empowering to do so. Being clever and sneaky, getting away with something, serves to make them feel less like a victim and less like a prisoner.
In the long run, however, secrets can become a source of stress and shame. Then, the empowering thing to do is to be honest, and share those secrets in a responsible way so that the forgiving and accepting can begin.
Implementation: Find a counselor, therapist, or true friend in which you can confide. Tell them what you feel or what you have done, and don’t hold back. Then forgive yourself and if necessary, make amends.